what hi school is all about

arrogances. ignorances. heartbreaks. unsaid feelings. procrastinations. growing up. bitch-slaps. competitions. sycophancies. curiosities. gone AWOL. fake smiles. unhealthy foods & beverages. recklessness. restlessness. insomnias. lunch-boxes. teacher's angers. prestige-demanding school. sleeplessness. youth wasting. smelly toilets. popular bitches. popular dude-bitches. existences. back-stabs. grammar errors. uniforms. flag ceremonies. throat shoving. teenage romances. geeks bullying. heavy bags. thick books. forgotten formulas. hi-achievers. ambitious kids. suicidal tendencies. bad scores. self-loathing. self-motivating. boasters. concert goers. cheats. games. math&sciences. humiliations. mockeries. enemies. trophies. field trips. inappropriate sayings. after-school activities. certificates. laboratories. grayness. unhappiness.

that moment when life gives you lemons

i just wanted to tell you that i have told Life that i loved it when it gave me lemons. because a lemon is not enough to throw me back down, neither are a jillion lemons. and i have told Life that if it ever gave me lemons again, i would squash it on the juicer then drink it then when the amount is big enough to make a lemon juice company, i would surely make one with all the pools of lemonade and then i would make it to the cover of famous magazines with exquisitely yay-face photos of me standing in front of my lemon juice company for the achievement i'd get at being the first man in universe to have converted lemonade into gasoline.

you see, Life? the lemons you gave don't bother me, at all. don't bother us, at all. we'll always know how to make the most out of your lemons, and for heaven's sake, the lemons are free gift away stuffs!

and i love free stuffs.

Sudut Pandang

Saya sangat kecewa mendapati perilaku orang-orang yang seharusnya saya hormati, jauh sekali dari apa yang saya anggap sebagai pantas dihormati. Orang-orang yang seharusnya saya hormati tidak akan memelas di status Facebook (bayangkan, status Facebook!) lalu marah-marah karena diminta untuk mengubah kebiasaan lama yang buruk menjadi kebiasaan yang lebih baik. Orang-orang yang saya hormati seharusnya tidak bersikap seakan-akan paling benar dengan segala permainan pikiran dengan kata-kata kasar sok tajam yang memperlihatkan betapa visioner-nya mereka, namun yang saya tangkap dari apa yang mereka bilang visioner adalah bahwa mereka berpikir dengan kotoran yang sudah diolah dari yang mereka makan pagi itu, yang lalu dibersihkan petugas kebersihan dan dibuang ke pembuangan akhir. Orang-orang yang saya hormati seharusnya bisa melihat dari segala sudut pandang dan tak lantas marah-marah terhadap persoalan di mana mereka sendiri tidak tahu intisarinya dan keseluruhan duduk permasalahannya. Orang-orang yang saya hormati seharusnya bisa diajak merubah pikiran yang selalu ingin disejahterakan menjadi mensejahterakan orang lain. Orang-orang yang saya hormati seharusnya tidak berpikiran sempit, karena mereka selayaknya malu pada langit yang terbuka begitu luas tapi tidak pikiran mereka.

Orang-orang yang saya hormati itu seharusnya masih bisa saya panggil guru-guru saya di Sekolah Menengah, tapi saya tidak yakin saya bisa memanggil mereka dengan sebutan itu lagi.

Guru-guru yang dulu saya kenal tidak pernah berpikiran serendah itu.

Atau berkelakuan serendah itu.

fuqyea bitches

even to define them bitches won't be enough to personally describe how bitch-like they are.

i mean, they're even worse than the term bitch itself.

the worst bitches are the worst of the worst world of worst bitches.

they're like these dogs who fucked cheap whores and even that is way better than them.

pardon the language, i'm in a total hate.

a total hate.

a loath so hard myself get burned.

hate. i fuckin hate you fuckin bitches.

yea fuck. you fuck.

fuck fuck fuck fuckety fuck fuck.

if they want me ;)

if i could do just one near perfect thing,

i'd be happy.

they'd write it on my grave,

or when they scattered my ashes.

on second thoughts,

i'd rather hang around

and be there

with my best friend,

if she wants me.

Belle & Sebastian - If She Wants Me

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gatau, jangan tanya. rasanya mau ketawa parah.

jadi gini...

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/colek yang ngomongin terompet naga di linimasa/

brief announcement

well... just in case you look down at your super mainstream BlackBerry-s and could not find my name on your BlackBerry Messenger, don't even bother to search my name because, yeah, I DON'T HAVE ONE, AND WON'T HAVE ANY BLACKBERRY-S for some times later in my hand and just because i don't have one doesn't mean I CAN'T AFFORD ONE, so you can stop underestimating me for not having what you have, i guess. there's a whole lot difference between won't have one and can't have one. i can but i won't. just... stop bragging about anything, will ya? stop leaving out everybody without BlackBerry-s, will ya?

P.S.

not having any BBMs but sure having an iMessage, just send any iMessage you want to silmikaf@live.com